Nude & Tattooed.
Let the beauty of what you love make what you do;
I think you’re cute
cute as in I wanna hear what you sound like while experiencing an orgasm
Because the hurtful truth is that you’re just a useless addiction that gives me absolutely nothing. you take from me and give nothing back in return, there’s no point in having you, you don’t even bother to get me high.
You slowly inflamed my heart, leaving me feeling suffocated, filled with insecurities and negativity inside my veins, lungs and heart. every time I tried to inhale you I realized how toxic and no good you are to me.
You were just an illusion, addictive illusion that always left me wishing things would change. I remember every single time you left me gasping for air alone simply because you enjoy watching me suffer.
I tried to light you up and keep you warm when you got cold, I fooled myself that maybe, just maybe, if I keep you close enough to my lips eventually you will turn into something good, but every time you touched my lips I felt nothing but burn.
The closer I got to you the more choked I felt. The more I tried and spent on you the more my body and soul went to waste. I thought I’ll always stay with that awful feeling you left in my throat, thought I’ll always end up coming back and filling myself with your toxic smoke.
I wish I let you go a long long time ago, would had been much better without your toxicity from the very beginning but I guess I was scared of letting go knowing how painful and hard picking this road is going to be.
I always lied to myself that if i’ll inhale you one last time things will get better, but the harder I tried to live along side with you the worse everything got for me, you showed me that I just have to let go, we never meant to be.
So I’m done poisoning myself, I’m letting you go for good, so don’t ever expect me to hold you in between my fragile fingers and always have you next to me no matter where I go, I don’t need you, I’m better off this way.
I throw you away today, and I promised myself to never come back, you’re just a mistake and a lie, and guess what? I already feel better without you.
"…all I want is the taste that your lips allow…"
There’s always been a war inside myself
and I don’t know if it’s good against evil
because that line is always blurred
I’m always torn between staying
Either way I know someone’s going to get hurt
but not the kind of hurt that’s healed with a bandage
Everything is so temporary
and life is so fast
I can’t spit the words
How do I know?
the future is unseen
and that’s terrifying to me
But hold my hand and tell me that right here
and right now
and darling that’s all I need
Maybe there’s no such thing as ‘forever’
But right here and right now
Give Me Love - Demi Lovato (left ear) and Ed Sheeran (right ear)(credit to +)